it might just all be a facade

Wednesday, May 31, 2006;

♥ 5/31/2006 05:49:00 AM

rain outside my window puring down
i guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
i jsut dont love you no more>>

i typ'd ALOT of things out here. and when i read thru it, i went to delete everything.
DONTASKWHY.
for all those who tried being there for me. im sorry.
for pretendin you all are invisible.
for puttin up those walls b/w us.
and for ignoring you all.
hmms. i feel that my whole life is screw'd up, fullstop.
dammit, i feel like crying. =\
byes.

cos i dunno
and i dont wanna know
wat the hell is going in your mind;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Friday, May 26, 2006;

♥ 5/26/2006 07:20:00 AM

imagine me and you
and you and me
no matter how they throw the dice
it had to be
the only one for me is you
and you for me
so happy together>>

HAPPYY!
yest went back pri sch. den den den den i went walking around the school. (:
1) my favourite stall; fishball mee stall. the aunty still rmbr me! hahas. had a great time catchin up with her indeed. seeing how i always like to buy food from her, and my fave food!!! YUMMY! (:
2) the drinks stall auntIES still rmbr me too! lol. so funn!!
3) my P4 chi teacher CAI LAO SHI still rmbr me! hahas. it was mtp in the hall. so i went up to her to say helloos! she said she is very surprised tt i still rmbr her. and she commented tt im very GUAI! (:
4) my P6 chi teacher XIE LAO SHI still rmbr me! hahas. she said she very long nvr see me le. den she wanna talk to me sometime!! ((:
5) my P5 chi teacher WU LAO SHI. the bestest one. ((: hehes. she said i changed alot! almost couldnt recognise me! ): lol. but yeah, ohh mann! she rocks! shr rocks! she rocks! ((: and i was grinning and smilin like my lips are gonna to split open anytime, when i was talkin to her. LOL. SHE ROCKS. (:
6) i went to make new specs! hahas. look rather funny on me i guess. but who cares. the aunty said im very daring to try out new daring colours, very good! hahas. and she offered me NICE candies! yummilicious! =p
7) i finish'd my eng homeowrk in fiveyrseries already! WHEES.

SADDD.
did i really disappoint you? i guess so. sighs. mummy just had a longg talkk with me. hmms.
mummy said: wat happen to you? do u have any problems? your results can never be this bad de. your PSLE T-score is 244. youre in maths oylmpiad. you get A* for maths in PSLE. now you maths results is so pathetic. wat happen? u really gotta pull up your socks and..................
yeah, she spoke to me very long, and im NOT gonna blog'd everything down here. like DUHH.
sighs. how?! i did really badly. and i disappoint'd myself too. sighs. everything went wrong after sec2. im serious. esp my studies. ):
my grades are going down down down. my social life too. and sighs. in short, i felt as though its the world against me, me alone. i feel downright pathetic deep down inside. BWAHHH!!!
i felt as though i let everyone down. everyone who tought so well of me. everyone who thinks of me. everyone who is concerned with my studies. sighs. esp aunty koh. shes ultra disappoint'd in my maths. sighs. i dunno. i just cant get anything rights. oh bother. SIGHS.
i can feel this BIG HUGE ENORMOUS rock tts occupying my heart and mind. but i cant find the right word to express it. all the troubles and problems i faced alone, yet i cant share it with anyone else. cos no one seems to understand. no one seems to care. and wats worst. no one seems to be there. owells.
now, im at the 2nd lowest pit in my life.
someone, save me.

baby
you werent there either;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Thursday, May 25, 2006;

♥ 5/25/2006 05:13:00 PM

never had a dream come true
til the day that i've found you
and even though i pretend that i've mov'd on
you'll always be my baby
i never found the words to say
you're that one i think 'bout each day
and i know no matter where life takes me to
a part of mewill always be
with you>>

okayys. yest the MTP. urghhh! it stinks. seriously. sighs. half the time mrchan was just telling my mum that the results just aint me, and i should be achievin better results, such as A1s. i was like, walao!. sighs. i dunno la. ):
MR CHAN;wfang, you should be achievin better results. these results are results you should not be achievin! yesh, i do know you're hardworking, and putting in the lil effort. but its seriously not enough. your PSLE T-score is 244, and tt proves almost everything. it means tt you can achieve better grades! now, you've gotta really concentarte on your studies, and not let your parents, teachers and yourself down! you're definitely capable of more alrights? it's time to just settle down already, not letting cca or anymore things affect you.
MUMMY; how can you achieve this kind of results? stop going for redcross activities already la. its time to work hard and study hard for Os y'know. your results in primary school - sec2 has always been good, but wat happen now? you're capable of better results girl. start working hard!
ZENG LAOSHI;(in chinese)yar! though your chinese is not bad, you can only depend on ONE subject rights? work hard yeas? since your PSLE T-score is 244, and now, you're in triple sci stream now. you definitely can achieve better grades rights? work hard and press on wfang! any prob in maths can ask me, im serious. i can help in maths. (:
MS YEO; since wfang is previously in maths olympiad competetions, she should be achieving in her maths. but she isnt. she has the capabalilty to achieve good results. its time tt she focus and concentrate more on her studies already.

look at that, all the underlined sentences. sighs.
yeah, maybe i din put in my best. maybe i din focus enough. maybe my heart is still somewhere else. =\
i wrote a 5pges diary entry last night. (: felt so much better after tt.
all i can say is tt, i've made alot of promises to myself. promises like;.. hmms. nvm. hah. shan say it out here. but yeah, those promises i wouldnt wanna break. (:
alrights, for today. i guess im gonna do more chinese close passage! since i always get 7or8, and tts freaking sickening. URGHHH!
a gentle reminder to those reading this: its 4more days to cheena Os. WORK HARD EVERYONE. (: get A1s!!! hah.

its time to let everything go
everything tts so dear to me
everything tt was once held so close to my heart
everything
including you;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006;

♥ 5/24/2006 06:39:00 AM

all in love is fair
one of us will lsoe
is it her or me
is it me or you
who's it gonna be
what you gonna do
are you over me
i'm not over you>>

i dunno why. but this song is STUCK in my mind for today. hmms
Have YOU Ever--SCLUB7

sometimes, its wrong to walk away
though you think its over
knowing theres so much more to say
suddenly the moment's gone
and all your dreams are upside down
and you just wanna change the way the world goes round

tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
wish'd there was a chance to say im sorry
cant you see
thats the way i feel
'bout you and me baby
have you ever felt your heart was breaking
looking down the road you should be taking
i should know
'cos i loved and lost the day i let you go

cant help but think that this is wrong
we should be together
back in your arms where i belong
now i finally realis'd
it was forever that i've found
i give it all to change
the way the world goes round

tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
wish'd there was a chance to say im sorry
cant you see
thats the way i feel
'bout you and me baby
have you ever felt your heart was breaking
looking down the road you should be taking
i should know
'cos i loved and lost the day i let you go

i really wanna hear you say
that you know just how it feel
to have it ALL and let it slip'd away
cant you see
even though the moment's gone
i'm still holding on somehow
wishing i could change the way the world goes round

tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
wish'd there was a chance to say im sorry
cant you see
thats the way i feel
'bout you and me baby
have you ever felt your heart was breaking
looking down the road you should be taking
i should know
'cos i loved and lost the day i let you go
yes i lov'd and lost the day i let
yes i lov'd and lsot the day i let you go

meaningful song indeed. (:
okayys. back to point. hmms. let me blog'd, starting from yest!
yesterday; i cant really rmbr wat happen'd though! hahas. but i know after school i made yuliang stay'd back to eat so i would have accompany. ahhas. and den after tt. i came home! (: LOL and i watch'd the korean show dvds from 4pm all the way to 9pm. and i finish'd up the socialstudies corrections. and i start'd watching again at 1030-1245+++++. hehes! i tell you. the show is so darn freakin nice. hah! the couple is so so so adorable. plus. the guy is so doubly.triply SWEEETTT! awwwww. hah. i want'd to blog'd down wat scene is the sweetest one. BUT i decid'd against it still. hahas! cos i dont wanna spoil the show for whoever is reading this! ohhh ohh ohh! btw. the show's on teevee. hahas. every mon and tues. channel U. at 7! yepp! ((: catch itttt!! =p
today!; hmms. i was VERY tired and VERY HIGH. (: hah. mr hou left already. awww. guess only the sec5 and my batch know mr hou well. LOL. yesh! i can nvr forget the fact tt WE are his favourite batch. and everytime we got pick'd on during morning assembly, in year 2004? hah! and we have to stay back to line up and stuff. heh. and he's freaking FUNNY i tell ya! hahas. during napfa. he's incharge of the sit&reach stationg. hahas. damn comical. =p
after tt was chapel. i dont get a single thing of wat the pastor is tryin to say. cos simply i dont really agree. but wells. forget it. hmms. bio was OKKAYY. phy! hahas. sat next to zhihao. and hes hiliarious! SUPER hiliarious. hah. recess. chem. we had GAMES? ROTFL. yeah, the alst part. ms liang ask'd us to draw a graph. on how our life is as we grow older. hahas. and stupid kong is irritaing me by remindin me of stuff. URKKKK! hmms. come to think of it, yeah. certain points in my graph would certainly SHOOT all the way up high!!!! hah! when at other point the points would go OFF the x-axis. =\ the funny part is. all the off-points happen'd almost at the same time. owells. ...
den it was humans. CHEENA! hahas. hmms. i tot i lost my chinese compo la! wth. den ms zeng said its with her. lol. idiotic. after school, went rcy room. walao! brandon tan was blasting the radio la. IDIOTT! and edmund FINALLY came to look for me for his diary! hahas. and he said this : walao! still say i swear somemore. next time i dont believe in you anymore le!'' awww. ): he's my good fren since sec1! hah. but serves him right for always blockin my way at the locker. and irritaing me. and kickin me./ and stepping on my shoes. BWAHHH! =X
anyways. den i came home after eating. and WATCH DVD. hahas. cool! i finish'd the whole series already. and damn it mann. the last disc is really damn touching. hahas. i look'd like a real retard sitting in front of the teevee, and crying like some NUT. =\ but yeah, its really so sad! sighs.

i want'd to blog somethings down. somethings tt are always on my heart and mind, and i need to get them off. BUT considering the ppl who come and read my blog. i cant really trustthem, so owells. forget bout it den. hmms. i just wanna say, one of the reason which makes me enjoy watching sad shows, is 'cos NOW, i have a valid reason to cry. (: owells. yeah.
anddd. im not feeling exactly too good the past few days. i dunno why. oh shyt. i hate this feeling. BWAHHH!
~~youre a total confusion~~

first you say you wouldnt cheat me
tt our love was to last all time
she must have been a big expection
if youre not the cheating kind;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Sunday, May 21, 2006;

♥ 5/21/2006 07:14:00 AM

theres a place youve touch'd
with your love
no one get close to
i can still feel you>>

ohhh! im so NICE and GUAI today. im SERIOUS.
- i woke up especially to say byebye to my mummy.
- i did my cheena compo.
- i swept the floor!
- i mop'd the floor!
- i wash'd my bro's and mine clothings!
the above three things made me sound awfully like a maid rights? =\
- i wait'd for my bro to finish'd his tuition (oh yeah! i think his tutor is cute. =X)
- i brought my bro down for lunch.
- ~~i watch'd tv for 5hours~~
- i did one english compre!
- i did one english compo!
and here i am. online praising myself. (: waiittttt. aint i so guai and nice today. hah!
go ahead people, PRAISE ME. but spare me all the hugs and kisses! =p

anyways. im SO bored la! hah! msgin my fren. i jsut charged my phone. and now i look'd at my phone, one more bar of battery left. =\ and we are still in the midst of msgin. =p LOL
hmms. read this:

_w.fang' in a million contradicts_ says:
no offence!
©JrR¥ K lor..win lor... says:
but i'm on the fence!
©JrR¥ K lor..win lor... says:
hahah..lame..oh well!
©JrR¥ K lor..win lor... says:
hahha XD
_w.fang' in a million contradicts_ says:
WALAO! -.-

and this:

_w.fang' in a million contradicts_ says:
have u caught any movie lately/
Великая Отечественная Война! says:
yah dirty ones
Великая Отечественная Война! says:
u know the yang tze cinemar
Великая Отечественная Война! says:
people's park there
Великая Отечественная Война! says:
wah seh hot sia
_w.fang' in a million contradicts_ says:
hah. WALAO!

SERIOUSLY. how come guys are getting lamer and lamer day by day? and zhihao! youre really polluting my mind day by day! you disgusting big fat retard'd pig! ROTFL =D
bwahhh! alrights. its freaking humid now. and i wanna watch my korean dvd alerady. GOSHHH! stop me somebody. im so addict'd to korean shows now. =XXXX

give me the reason to hate you;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Saturday, May 20, 2006;

♥ 5/20/2006 07:25:00 AM

but there's a danger in loving somebody too much
and its sad when you know
its your heart you cant trust
theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
baby sometimes
love jus aint enough>>

ohh! i realis'd i miss alot of ppl so i decid'd to write down their names today! hehes
-MICHELLE LEE, my sunshine; dear. i haven seen you in ages alrights! lets meet up somewhere, sometime. i rmbr your kingkong's wife!! hehes.
-SARAH ANN; i miss ALL your crappiness.
-KEVIN LAI; i miss my eight yrs old senior! ((:
-YIP ENSHAO; my eight yrs old senior. i miss your bullshit-ness.
-SHIMIN, bestbuds!; you! yes YOU! hahas. i miss you too! i haven been sharing things with you anymore already! ):
-HO JIAYEE; i miss you!!
-SZEMIAN VALERIE YUNXING ELIS JACQUELINE MARTHA; my dear faggies!!!
-CHANEL YULIANG BRANDON NIRMA CARISSA YUNXING XIANGFENG SIMON SALEHA; my dear exco!
-HOSEA JOSHUATOH NICHOLAS CLARENCE JOASH and practically all the 2c04 guys; ahhas. cool! you all just brightens up my day! (:
- CARISSA ZHENGXIAN DJ EDMUND JOSHUA KONG CHERYL SELENE CHANEL JOAQUINA RACHELMENG MARY JOSHUALIM NIRMA YENYEE BRANDON NAOMI STANLEY ISSAC ZHIHAO MATTHEW GRACE and almost everyone; cool! we will be classmates for two years! hehes. and thank you for always being there, bringing smiles and laughter to my life! WHEES! =p
-HUIJUAN HWEETENG INDRA MENUKA RENUKA LAUREEN ALINA YUHUIMA'AM and all my sdc04 groupmates/campmates; i miss miss miss you all! hahas. losing contact already though. ): still, thank you. for making my first HQ camp a great and memorable one!! hehes.
-PEIPEI YUYE NURUL ALAN DAXTER FATIKAH HUITING FIONAMA'AM; you all help'd me surviv'd thru the stressful rushing-thru proposal days. hehes. ulp! TO LEAD AND TO SERVE! YEAH!! hehes. =p
-CLARA STELLA GWEN AUDREY AMANDA PEIYU SIXUAN GAB VALERIE JERENE JACQUELINE YVONNE MSTOH MSYEO SHINGJIE GAVIN HERALD JERRY JOEL WENHAO JEREMY HONGWEI ZHONGHAO CHESTER CLARENCE REUBEN ; you girls made my trip to china go wild!!! hehes. and those who played daidee thru those cold nights. and lonely bustrips. hahas! LOVEEE! yeahh! PLUSPLUSPLUS. the group who went around, smearing facial mask onto our faces, and gg around scaring ppl. HEHES. it was ~~HELL~~ HEAVEN LOAD OF FUN i tell you. HEAVEN LOADS. =D those who din go china for slt06, give yourself a slap. (: and the SHARING CLIQUE, keeping me enterain'd with stories. (:
- him; no, i dont hate you. cos i cant hate you. no matter wat, i hope YOU know tt you will always be in my LOVES and MISSES list. hmms.
- and basically. EVERY SINGLE ONE who had left your footprint in my life; (:

youre the one
who can make moments last forever;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Friday, May 19, 2006;

♥ 5/19/2006 07:09:00 AM

but only love can say
try again and walk away
but i believe
for you and me
the sun will shine one day>>

BWAHHH! im going to S2E, tts for sure! hahas
but then again, if it helps me to study hard and prepare myself for the upcoming majors exams, why not? hehes. but still, BWAHHH! ):
alrights, anyways. i have carissa and zhihao saying they would sit with me during S2E, so i guess, i wont be alone? hehes. at least, I HOPE SO. =X sighs.
this is seriously shytty! the results are real HORRID! urkkk! to gross to be mention'd thru words and EEWKS! its disgustingly gross. and i bet only RETARDS can get those kinda hell stupid marks. BLEAHH! please, im includ'd. ):
okays, actually, i dunnop wat the hell im typing just now. hehes. im suffering from a real headache, and its killing me. gonna find smth for edmund.

tsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsktsk. i just realis'd ive nth else to blog already! hahas. hmms.
oh yeah! my hpone got confiscated by mrs low in audi jus now. PLEASE!!! its after school, and besides. its not as if im the ONLY one using phone cans! hahas. but i still got it back in the end. =p
hmms, yenyee is nice. (: sometimes, not ALL friends are trustable. only certain friends will stand by you, keeping you accompanied. and that's wat a TRUE FRIEND is defined as. (: LOL
i realis'd im sitting next to yenyee almost every sub! hahas! for emaths and amaths and physics and chemistry and chinese and humans. LOL. i would have died in the lessons without her i guess! no one to tease and make fun of. no one's book for me to doodle nonsense. and help'd me with the Q i dunno. hahas. yenyee. you rocks. (:

oh yeahh. MTP next wed. im SUPER DUPER ULTRA screw'd. i just hope mr chan wont make any FUNNY remarks bout me and stuff. and my mummy wont get the shock out of her life and kill me after seeing my HORRIBLE results.

PLEASEEE! )):

sighs.

shittttttttt! my headache's getting worse. hahas. so is my mood. BWAHHH! my results aint helping. and the thoughts aint helping too. ): sighs. i need, ummm. nevermind... =\

and everything's slipping away from me
ive lost the direction;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006;

♥ 5/17/2006 05:35:00 AM

'iloveyou' is not what i want
i want you to be by my side forever
youre all thats in my heart
is it the same with you>>

ohh boyy! i love the channelU 7pm korean show. NICENICENICE. (:
and shoots. i think im addict'd to korean show. =p

hmms. got back somemore results today.
physics prac; 20.5/30.
LOL! stanley and mary and i sat tgt. and all three of us got the same marks. wth. hmms. and nirma join'd the 'family' too. hehes. shoots! half more mark to have a A2 for prac. and gawd dammit! i bet i will get like F9 for my phy theory. SHYT!
anyways!
social studies; 14/25.
though it still STINKKKK. budden. its way way way wayyyyy better dan my eff-in history marks. hah. SHYT mann! sometimes i really wonder, why did i take up history?!. ~~isit cos of... nononono.~~

oh yeah! today's the guys napfa. hahas! had AOP with the sec3s. HMMMS!
den went back to the redcross room. hahas! 4e guys doing chinups! =p. lol. zx did 14. edmund did 13. brandon did 9. kong did 3. joshua did 6. hahas. i can do like, 50? =ppppp
den went off with chanel tt pig. LOL! shes LAME! (: waittt, im serious.

hmms. im bored bored bored bored! BWAHHH! =\
oh yeah! i wanna catch da vinci code. and over the hedge. (:
date meeeee! =p

ive seen your true colours already;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006;

♥ 5/16/2006 07:23:00 AM

so here we stay
in our secret place
with the sound of the crowd
so far away
and you take my hand
it feels like home
we both understand
its where we belong>>

fiddledeedee! i have a HAPPY NEWS! (: and sad news ):
hahas.
HAPPY NEWS!
i had a wonderful, sweet, nice, great, cool, good, lovely, pretty, and best dream last night. =p
hehes. i think i only told zx and my girlfriend wat it is. LOL! and its cool! ((x
i wanan dream of it AGAIN! =sad news..
my results are freakin freakin freakin gross. like totally.
starting off the day with darn bio paper; 52.5/100. FFREAKKKK!
den was PE.......
afterwhich was emaths; slightly better; 61.5/100. URGHHH.
recess..
humans! a bloody 4/25. wtf. though i expect'd a f9, but a 4/25. tts so so so ridiculous. wfang, go bang your head against the wall and die. =\
hmms, amaths. hah. i dunno whether to say im lucky or wat. 40/80, on the dot. fcuk.

urghhh! and as you can see, these results pull'd me all the way down to the ground. WRAHHH!
tml's taking back physics and chem i suppos'd. SHYT IT.
if i ever pass those two papers, i would go jump off my flat.
if i fail'd, i will jump off the building too.
):
and shyt! if i din calculated wrongly. i will e havin like 30++++++++ or even 40+++++++ for my L1R5.
ohh gawddd. dammit. FCUK IT!
URKKKKKK! i said F*** two times. =X

anyways, stay'd back with yx and carissa. start'd talkin bout how UNFAIRLY we are being treat'd at home. hah! with irritaing younger siblings and unreasonable parents who are forveer siding them. LOL! i never knew we are all in the same boat. hah!
btw. hmms. jus completed the proposal for confidence walk and finish'd up the proposal for firedrill. =\ and im feeling DUHH-SLEEPLY! =p
let me have a good night's sleep. before i jump off my builing tml. =X
and YEAH!
i wanna dream of it again. =p so tt i can smile in my dream. hehehehehehs.
mann. i WAS madddd. totally madd. ((x

ive so much things to tell you
wont you just stay by my side;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Sunday, May 14, 2006;

♥ 5/14/2006 08:02:00 AM

OOHH! i just realised that my captions for the pics are screw'd up! =X

but im too lazy to change it already. so yeah!

ENJOY! =p

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

;

♥ 5/14/2006 07:57:00 AM

please give it one more try for the sake of our love
lets give it one more chance cos i cant give you up
i cant live one more day w/o you in my arms
i cant find another like you>>

dumdeedum! jus finish'd plannin some HIGHLY CONFIDENTIAL RCY MATTERS with carissa. hahas. seriously. we rocks. (;
hahahah! and now. my eyes are so sore, after starin at the com screen for 2hours straight? BAHHH! =X

y'know y'know! szemian and i plan'd so many things for today la! hahas. first i will go cycling with my bro. den szemian and i will meet up. den we will go window shopping! den we will go look at clothes? den we will go buy gifts! den we will watch movies. den we will take neo? hahas! its so much hell of fun la! den after all the planning. i sent her this msg: SHYT! SZEMIAN! I FORGOT TT TML I GOT A MEETING THAT WILL COVER MY WHOLE MORNING AND AFTERNOON! =X hah! URKKKKK =

meeting was alright today! cept for the lunch part. hmmms. =X hahas. still, meeting was rather productive? hahas. at least we settle alot of events and stuff for the upcoming camp? yeah!
hahas. i cant wait for the camp!! lol. and den we will have all the sadist things and such. hehes! =

anyways. i shall put up pics! ((: so here it goes:
meeting (13may06)
MEETING!

ilove this! hahas. me carissa xf.

it reads; BATHH. BRAndon.no BRA. =p

carissa's acting cute! hahas. GREEN FREAK fo the day.

my phone. ((: my life.

my temp signature! hehes.

my present rank. (:

uncle's bday celebration!
my CUTEEE grandmummy and i. ((:

my boyfriend and i! hah! i wish!

the delicious FRIED ICECREAM. (:

pics at random
me mybro mich. cny06. SPARKLERRRS. (:

me and jacq.

my boyfriend! hehes.

yummy! (:

mary nimra i. at puala semakua. ((: beautiful scenary!

at bangkok transit. FOOT MASSAGE! (:

enrolment cum promotion parade 06. STICK ORDERLY!

childhood memories.
NO! im NOT acting cute! =\ and im eating my bday cake. =p

the three PESTS. =p (before)

the three PESTS. =p (after)

im born to march. him too!

my fave bestest guy cousin. LOVEEEE! <3 href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/4154/471/1600/kh%20and%20i.jpg">

my bro! ((:

best cousins in the world

my granddaddy and i

my faves.

tada!
post someomore pics next time. (:
anyways. ahhas. im happy! carissa said she loves me! lol.

a carissa catastrophe. says:
GOODNIGHT DHALINGGG
_w.fang' in a million contradicts_ says:

lol. alrights.
a carissa catastrophe. says:
haha. lame right
_w.fang' in a million contradicts_ says:

nice DJ! =X carissa!
a carissa catastrophe. says:
makes me laugh
_w.fang' in a million contradicts_ says:
dumdedum!
a carissa catastrophe. says:
WHAHASHAJSKHASJSKA
_w.fang' in a million contradicts_ says:
nights~
a carissa catastrophe. says:
ook. love ya
_w.fang' in a million contradicts_ says:
hahas. loveeee!
...
SEE?! she loves me! too bad ,dj.
BAHHHH! =p

oh yeas! tml's mother's day!

i love you mummy!!! SMACKS!

i love you grandmummy!!! SMACKS!

fiddledeedee. and its rachel's bday too!

i love you rachel meng mei li! =p

whees! ((: hahas.

called tutor to cancel tuition tml. hahas. cos i realised tt tml's mummy's day! hehes.

URKKK! im thinkin. when will S2R starts. ):

cos my bag's already pack'd and im all ready for S2E. )):

i wanna watch dvd already! hehes.

zhihao> dont think dirty! its all korean shows. ahhas. not zhihao-liked shows. which you would love to pause and stare at the screen for a few million years. NOOOOO way! =p

there's a place you've touch'd

with your love

no one get close to

i can still feel you;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Saturday, May 13, 2006;

♥ 5/13/2006 07:01:00 AM

cos we lost it all
nothing last forever
i'm sorry
i cant be perfect
now its just too late
and we cant turn back
i'm sorry
i cant be perfect>>

PEEK-A-BOO!

wells. WHAT?! i said i will be back din i? =p

hmms. im SO SO SO SO BORED i tell you, cos exams over and theres no more last-min-mugging for papers anymore? bleahh! hah. still remember everynight crammin all the darn info into my small teenyweeny brain the night before whatever paper. URKK! totally gross! but yeas. now? i can spend the whole day watching dvds. using the com. chatting on the phone. and SLEEPIN! hah! i slept for like, 12hours STRAIGHT on fri? like wth. hah! bahhh!

owells. im bloggin for a reason, like DUHH. hmms. dont bother asking. cos i doubt i will say anyways. but hah! im gonna blog! and blog daily i hope? hmms.

life hasnt exactly been a bed of roses, for me at least. so much troubles and problems for me to face alone. URKKK! and sometimes i really feel like ending EVERYTHING SINGLE SHYT IN THIS WORLD. but den of cos, theres so many things are are so dear to my heart tt i jus couldnt bring myself to forsake. and tt explain the fact tt im still ~~standing~~sitting down here. typing this post away. hmms.

memories; strange isnt it? tt memories can bring you so much joy and smiles. yet it brings along the emptiness and tears. owells. hmms. AS I WAS SAYING, i have TONS of time for MYSELF after the exams. and i went back flipping thru my dairies and stuff. hahas. its really amusing. seeing how ive actually grown, mentally. i read the dairyi wrote in P6, hahas. HOW SILLY WFANG! and yeas, its really cool. now tt i can actually look back at MY PAST. hehes. and im sure glad tt I am the one readin the dairies, not other ppl! hahas. sayy, i really miss my old self. hmms, the self all the way back in year 2002? hah. when theres arent much troubles, and everything is just so blissful? owells, one thing for sure, back then. there just arent so much problems and tears and stress to handle ALONE. hmms, as i grow older. things just get so complicated. BAHH!

anyways. i made poems! hahas. not recently though. i made the poems back then, when tt AWFUL incident happen'd. hahas. and i wanna post one of them up here. (: and of cos it aint nice! mann! im call'd a student for a bloody good reason yeas? hmms. here it goes:

(to AHEM*)

youve gone and wont return

just like ive took a terribly wrong turn

i cant get out; im really lost

but i know, love cant be forced

perhapes we werent meant to be

or maybe the girl just wasnt me

time flew, love fade

like in water, away it wade

go on, walk out fo that door

turn around, i dont want you to see me fall

baby, you know

somtimes its really wrong

to turn and walk away so suddenly

though you think its over like finally

cos theres still so much i dont undersatnd

theres still things you must explain

nahh too late for me

youve already gone like the wind

the memories that stayed in my heart

i wanna forget, its just so hard

i used to be drown in your sweetness

in your warm embraces and kisses

all these time ive been under your wings

but now you left, like youre havin a fling

i gotta adapt on my own

gotta rely on my own

cos you, my baby, wont come home

i miss you i need you i want you

cos this love had label'd me; A FOOL

time spent together with you is luxury

your face and smile stay print'd in my galaxy

wat really hurts is the truth that is true

truth is: i lov'd you and i still do.

hmms. THERE! hahas. fine! it isnt nice, so what? at least the meanin of this poem is true. =\ BAHH!

oshucks! being online is so boring!!! wrahhh! w/o my GIRLFRIEND! and zx and hmms, this person whom i NEVER talk'd to. owells. BAHH!

to have it all and let it slip away

cant you see

though the moments gone

im still holdin on somehow

wishin i could change

the way the world goes round;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.